This is the first entry.

Well here we go.  I was told years ago that journaling was a great way to cope with things and to work through some problems.  I found this site today and I am hoping it will help me work through some issues that I have been working on with my online ma and maybe help give me some clarity on why I do some things that I do and how I can get past them.  Also I want to just be able to come here and rant sometimes where it is safe and I won't hurt anyone.  I know that I have some anger/hurt issues and I do want them to be better.  So far all that I have managed to do was to stuff some feelings or have the anger/hurt come out and manifest itself in other ways.  Sometimes those were destructive and that is not good either so I need to find ways to deal with some things in a healthy safe environment.  I do this with my ma but there are still some times that I would like to just be able to talk to strangers or to deal with problems without talking to her.  She is great to me but there are times that I feel guilty for always needing to talk to her about problems.  I would really like to be able to just get to the point that I can deal with them alone and be a healthy happy lady without having issues to work through.