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- Hi my names peter i lost my spouse to suicide in dec 2013. I came on this website a lot in the first year and found it a great help. More just to know there are people all around the world experiencing what i was. I also had an affinity with some...
- Hey folks, havnt been on here for a while just thought id share my thoughts. Im approaching 2 years 12/12/15. I have spent those 2 years in court getting my relationship with my spouse of 15 yrs recognised as we werent married. Her brother claimed...
- i visited this site 2 weeks after my spouse of 15 years took her life 6 months ago. i had so much support to get me through those insane first months. this is a fantastic site, i'll never forget the understanding i received here.I still struggle...
- squeege committed suicide in mid December. Found out on Monday she was using drugs in the last month. Went to dinner with her work mates who told me she was on drugs for years, they couldn't believe i didn't know. And all this suffering over her...
- my spouse committed suicide a few months ago, we broke up 2 weeks prior. I just found out our closest friend was taking drugs with her at the time of our breakup. I won't bother trying to explain the whole story but the point is:I wasn't coping well...
- I'm finding now after two months that i lost my identity somewhere along the line. There was no Pete, it was Pete and Squeege.This isn't just a grief process but the safety blanket has been ripped away, now you get to find out who you really are,...
- i don't think a single minute has gone by where i wasn't thinking of her in some way or another. I hate these random thoughts . . . what if she didn't really love me? . . . what if some guy contacts me and tells me they were having an affair? all...
- been having multiple nightmares every night. Being tormented by the last two weeks of her life before suicide.knowing she died with a broken heart, and all the questions about how she really felt about me are tormenting me.the last two weeks were so...
- Been dreaming of my girl most nights, i don't care if their nightmares it's good to see her talking and moving. I have no film of her, no voice mail. I long for sleep so that i might see her again. Anyone else find dreams so precious?
- When the worst thing you could think of has already happened to you you have nothing to fear anymore. Your free to go forward and live without fear, try new things, no more regrets. Still carry the pain of the past but no fear of the future. Just...
- I live in Perth Western Australia and just started a support group for people who have lost their spouse. It's Friday afternoon and i'm feeling the hurt, this is when i would go out somewhere with my girl so the pain is more intense. My hope is...
- I notice people on this site referring to dating again or future love. It's only been a month for me so it's just not an issue. I know logically that the years will pass and i will get lonely and that frightens me cause i feel like the only way to...
- Since my better half died in mid December iv'e been thinking more about the big question. . . "what the hell are we here for, what was/is the point"Everything in life seems trivial now and all i think about is that question, i know there's no...
- Was at a support group today where this sweet lady was talking about her husband who she lost to suicide. It happened 4 years ago but from the sound of her i thought it must have happened recently.Maybe the heart is like the liver, it has an...
- Completed my first day back at work, I'm a bush ranger at a national park and used to love my job now it's a daily reminder of what use to be. I got home and just cried until i fell asleep.Anyone else feel like they've trekked through the desert,...