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- I have noticed(and dread) the sense of emptiness I feel after I have done something or feel good. If something good happens or I have been somewhat productive, then when it's over, it's back to the reality that is my life. I truly miss him when I...
- When we ask how can they do it. How could they have cheated, lied and left with no remorse? When we ask how they go on with their lives and be so happy and carefree? When we ask how can they have no guilt or remorse? What we really mean is how can...
- When this ordeal began back in May, I coped. I had a lot of plans. I was going to pursue the certification. So I had a purpose. Got up and had tests to study for. There was a purpose. I came back to NY thinking I still had a marriage. It gave me...
- Lately, I have been getting the really incredulous, pitying look from 40 ish, suburban moms who just CAN'T understand how I couldn't see the signs? How could you not see that he was a monster capable of findjng a 30 year skanky nanny, first time in...
- Woke up from terrible, terrible nightmares last night. I kept dreaming of my ex mother in law. I believe, while my stbx shares the majority of blame for our breakup, I believe my ex-mother in law had a major role in it. Last night, I was reliving...
- He no longer acknowledges me in his emails to the mediator. He only addresses her and sends the email to her with his comments about instructions for me or for the divorce. He COMPLETELY ignores me. He just says, Dear Ms. Piro. Then she has to write...
- It is an indescribable period. I keep hearing that the emotional ups and downs are normal but I can't help but think I am very abnormal. I just take one step forward and two steps back. Just find moments when I am strong and then moments where I...
- I just went to my favorite clothing site on line and won't you know it: the picture of a tall, black haired, slender woman, gorgeous to a tee staring back at me. My heart sunk. Just for a second, I thought is this what "she" (the OW) looks like?...
- Saw the stbx today. It was pretty hostile. He kept saying I want this over with as soon as possible. I want this filed as soon as possible. It wasn't necessary. He is speeding things up so he is getting the divorce over with. It's just he just kept...
- Hi guys. This week is going to be tough. I have to actually see and interact with the stbx on Tuesday. I am already preparing for the fallout. I will probably regress. Start missing him again and start feeling sad again. The good news is that it IS...
- HI guys,I figured if I can pour my soul out to you; you should know what I look like. This is me. suffering and all
- guys, I posted this in another link but I wanted your take on this.thank you guys. The last straw was Friday when he emailed our mediator saying he wanted to speed things up and sign off on a final decision. He even said he is not waiting the 6...
- He told me about the other woman a couple weeks ago. He is adamant about the divorce and he SWEARS he is not with her. He swears he doesn't want a project but I can't believe him. She's a 30 year nanny, who is now in college. He met her at a café...
- I know my struggle. I met my husband when I was 20 years old. I was beautiful, free, so full of life. I was looking to find someone to love. The thing about me that makes me unique is my capacity to love. I love fully, completely. I give everything....
- My sister threw me out of her house. She was more abusive than usual and even came into my face to hit me. It was bad. I called the ex up. I told him about the situation. He came about 1 hour later. Instead of taking me back to our home, HE PUT ME...