krndNewark

I feel like shit today. I had a dream that I was at work. I woke up mad and sad all at the same time.  I want my job back and I don't. I need to work, not only for the money, but but because I've...

I got fired on Decmber 17th,2008 after 14years. I cried and thought about sucided alot. I broke my computer and drank and pilled myself into a mess. I bearly eat and shower or do anything. my best...

I wanted to up date my journal. I feeling much better than the last entry. I've read a very positive book and feel much better. I had  a couple of dates and did nice things. I seriously think that I...

i feel like shit and i'm in the middle of it real good. I went to BB house to cheer up and that didn't work. he made me feel like an invalid. Depression, Bipolar and Herpes and any other thing is...

i'm so depressed it feels like im choking on a pill. my chest fill heavy with empty air. i feel in mourning. empty and confused all at once. tired and aching and pains for no reason i can think of....

I got my period this week. Gross. I have to have PMS to the tenth power. I need meds for this shit. my mood drops too low. Secondly, I had aproblem w/ a friend of mine last week and I decided to talk...

IS VENTING WORTH IT AT THE END OF THE DAY? i'M PERSONALLY TIRED OF IT. ALTHOUGH I'M GOOD AT IT. WORK IS WORK HOME IS HOME SO WHY COMPLAIN ABOUT SHIT YOU CAN'T FIX. I CANT QUIT MY JOB AND I MUST IVE...

today is nothing more than another day, This weekend i laid around all weekend. Friday i had an appointment so i didn't go to work and did one or two errands. After that i sat in my bed for the rest...

I'm a little heated about the recent discussion that he and i are having. I don't want a constant reminder about H. I have it and don't want to know about it. It's not me only apart of me. It's not...

i could vent more and more these days but it does no good. I had a nice weekend. very busy I'm not sure if this is ok. I'm not hyped just trying to stay active. I'm not sure if I mentioned that on...

 Thursday- well this is an update. I had string free sex again and again im not happy with the out come. but it's something better thatn nothing. the dude is nice just not up to speed in that...

I'm tired. i stayed up late last night and it's catching up to me today. I had too musch wine. I'm feeling like shit today. I'm still happy but tired. I could only imagine what he feels like. Last...

Between Bingoboy and this election I'm going to go crazy. I'm so wired and anxious. I had to take a pill to sleep although I'm tired. I VOTED and I'm glad. I could work today ( yes I had to work). I...

well I'm anxious I can feel the nerves in my body on hte outside of my skin.This is way wierd! it started lastnight Bingoboy  and I talked  and he had alot to say. He loves me this is something...