krndNewark

well I've been out of work since Dec17th and looking 4 wrk. I barely have time to come on this site any more. I need to make time. I really need to be back on my meds. I'm cycling like Crazy. My best...

Well i'm back. I feel like shit maybe every other 2 days so this is an improvement.I'm active and alert. I'm showering and cleaning my house. I did cut a few of my "fake friends" out of my life. and...

I feel like shit today. I had a dream that I was at work. I woke up mad and sad all at the same time.  I want my job back and I don't. I need to work, not only for the money, but but because I've...

I got fired on Decmber 17th,2008 after 14years. I cried and thought about sucided alot. I broke my computer and drank and pilled myself into a mess. I bearly eat and shower or do anything. my best...

I am stressed!!! I feel tense than a motherfucker!! My back actually hurt fromthe tension and my neck feels like if you touch it, it will exploded!!!! I far too much going on at the same time and...

I feel like I am about to cry. I am very depressed and I know it and no one else knows it but me. I feel all crazy inside. I need to lay down, but I am waiting for my teacher to response to my post....

Well my goal for today is to be positive!!!! All day!!! Nothing bad is going to happen to me today!! I will have a great day!! I am productive and I am happy! I have faith! I will succeed in...

The only friend that I have, my BF, I went off on today. I did not mean to but she calls and ask the same stupid question everyday. " hey, what's up?" And the answer is still the same, " nothing" I...

I am mad as hell and I need to scream until I bleed!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am all over the place emotionally. I am tired, this thing called life is tiring. I am at my wits in with everything. I can not...

Well, it's been a while since I wrote on here. My grandmother died November 17th, 2010. And that added more stress and depression to my life. My oldest son is an asshole and he knows it. I do not...

Well, it's been a while since I wrote on here. My grandmother died November 17th, 2010. And that added more stress and depression to my life. My oldest son is an asshole and he knows it. I do not...

I'm not in a very good mood and don't want to be bothered. I'm depressed and anixous all the time and now to top it off, I applied for college and Kasiah came back home.I not in the mood for him and...

Well I fucked up but I know that I didn't. I was not in a good mood which has been for the last few days. I've been alone for awhile and I don't know why I even answer the phone anymore. I get...

Well It's been too long time I've been very busy doing NOTHING! I have soo much on mymind that it would take too long to write it all.So I guess I'll start with the most recent and that's how I feel/...

I hope that anyone that reads any of my journals think that I'm an angel!!!! But my Ex-Husband is a monster. He still verbally abuses me and trys/ does get under my skin. He knows how to take my joy...