krndNewark

Well I haven't been on DS in a while. I'm still on my meds and taking them faithly.  I'm not sure if I notice the any changes yet. I'm still not working but still looking. I must stay positive bcuz...

Well it's been a while but I'm finally back on meds. I started Wednesday May 13th,2009 and nothing yet. I don't feel the effects, but I know that they will kick in soon enough. I knew that I needed...

No I need to be back on meds and see a Pdoc. I need to get my mind back on track. I'm all over the place. I stop smoking and that's killin me and I think that I have enough on my plate. I'm still...

I'm trying to stay positive. I'm looking for work. I'm on this computer everyday,except when I'm not.LOLOLOl!!!! Got laugh away the stress, can't cry and laugh at the same time. I know that I will...

I finally got out of the bed. Yeah I've been in the bed for a while. I'm tired and tired. I have no energy. I made myself move and shower today. I have to look for work and clean. Really don't want...

I am PMSing real bad. I don't feel like writing this but its good to let  it out. YEAH RIGHT!!! I feel like I'm fighting myself internally. I can cry any minute now.  I feel worn down and defeated...

A new day and new  stuff to do. I go to "work ", on the computer every day til noon, then I'm free and relaxed to do whatever else there is to do. I don't feel so down about not having a job when I...

well I've been out of work since Dec17th and looking 4 wrk. I barely have time to come on this site any more. I need to make time. I really need to be back on my meds. I'm cycling like Crazy. My best...

Well i'm back. I feel like shit maybe every other 2 days so this is an improvement.I'm active and alert. I'm showering and cleaning my house. I did cut a few of my "fake friends" out of my life. and...

I feel like shit today. I had a dream that I was at work. I woke up mad and sad all at the same time.  I want my job back and I don't. I need to work, not only for the money, but but because I've...

I got fired on Decmber 17th,2008 after 14years. I cried and thought about sucided alot. I broke my computer and drank and pilled myself into a mess. I bearly eat and shower or do anything. my best...

I wanted to up date my journal. I feeling much better than the last entry. I've read a very positive book and feel much better. I had  a couple of dates and did nice things. I seriously think that I...

i feel like shit and i'm in the middle of it real good. I went to BB house to cheer up and that didn't work. he made me feel like an invalid. Depression, Bipolar and Herpes and any other thing is...

i'm so depressed it feels like im choking on a pill. my chest fill heavy with empty air. i feel in mourning. empty and confused all at once. tired and aching and pains for no reason i can think of....

I got my period this week. Gross. I have to have PMS to the tenth power. I need meds for this shit. my mood drops too low. Secondly, I had aproblem w/ a friend of mine last week and I decided to talk...