I got FIRED

I got fired on Decmber 17th,2008 after 14years. I cried and thought about sucided alot. I broke my computer and drank and pilled myself into a mess. I bearly eat and shower or do anything. my best friend and family made me get up to apply for unemplyment, which didn't cross my mind until some one else mentioned it. I feel lost. i feel like someone has passed away. Anyway.I'm at my sister house typing this i needed to pay bills. I've been out of work since 12/17 and I'm tired. I know that it's depression. I have alot in my head but don't feel like typing it out. Anyone that reads this Pray for me. thks.