today

I feel like shit today. I had a dream that I was at work. I woke up mad and sad all at the same time.  I want my job back and I don't. I need to work, not only for the money, but but because I've always worked. I had my first job at 16yrs old and now I'm 34 yrs old. It's just a way of life for me. I've cleaned every part of my aptment and I 'm slowly running out of things to do.  I'm not changing my emotion face i'll be sad for awhile.  Pray for me.