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Life is very busy.  Some days are just full and yet it is not too much.  This morning is a late start day for teachers.  We are supposed to meet and discuss teacher stuff.  Instead I am going to...

Another Sunday comes and life is good.  Actually good.  That is amazing considering how poor I felt just a month or so ago.  I have the day to myself and don't mind that.  My kids are asleep and...

Sunday morning.  Quiet in the house.  Both of my kids spent the night at friend's houses.  So I get a taste of what life will be like when they go to college next year.  It is nice.  The idea...

I am finally in the green! I don't believe it.  It does happen though. I look back on the last couple of months since I got here to DS and see so much change in me and all for the good. Trauma and...

It has been a while since I wrote here.  That might be a good sign. I am not tortured or upset on the level I was. Thinking back a clear lesson to me is that waiting, although hard, produces...

I just had a great night. I went with my daughter to our school's basketball game against our big rival.  My kids are seniors in high school and my son was there also.  The gym was packed and the...

Yesterday was challenging.  My family had a non binding mediation on custody.  I talked with the mediatior, my wife talked with the mediator then one kid and the other did the same.  Them my wife...

Things have sort of settled down with my feelings.  It is easier to live. My heart is not hurting. I sleep at night.  However, this new stage bears with it some challenges.  Externally, the...

Early morning is me time. I can read my messages and write this journal.  I look at the things I am doing now during this time and can see the benefits of going through this painful situation. ...

Frist journal of the new year.  The last year was very difficult but I have hope that the coming year will be full of change and growth.  When I look back on my nineteen years of marriage I see...

Early morning and a bit blue.  The other day, two days ago, my sbtx came over after her job to talk.  She had admitted that she was overwhelmed by her life and that she needed help.  Why I would...

Two days after Christmas.  I am looking forward to January 2nd.  This last week was tough and interesting.  My seventeen year old twins spent Christmas morning with me and then went to my wife's...

Five thirty A.M. I wake up and shuffle to the bathroom, to, well, you know.  The cat that no one in the family likes, pees in the corner on the rug.  Another start to another day.  Now that I have...

Before my sbtx and I seperated we went to a counselor.  She kept saying that it was clear that I was unhappy because I wasn't getting what I wanted, which was to work things out.  My sbtx was the...

Another day up at five am.  I am hoping that I can feel my heart giving way to the logic of my head.  I sure hold on tight to the idea that if I want the marriage to last and survive that it...