Life is very busy.  Some days are just full and yet it is not too much.  This morning is a late start day for teachers.  We are supposed to meet and discuss teacher stuff.  Instead I am going to meet with my first period class at a restaurant and have breakfast together.  It is an advanced class and it will help us to bond further. In May, they take the Advanced Placement test and what we do in February will effect what happens in May and beyond.  Then after work I go to the dentist for the third time in two weeks.  No pain involved, first time replacing a cavity that fell out, then teeth cleaning and no fix a chipped tooth.  Lucky me.  Then my daughter's cell phone is broken so we need to get her a new one.  After all, she is seventeen!  Then she is sick so we go to wait at the HMO Immedcenter so she can get anti-biotics.  A trip to the market for cat food is in order and dinner(?) somewhere out there.  A full life is a good life at this point.  I am aware each day that the pain that I felt so severely for months is gone. I am also aware that I am very fragile and that my new found self awareness and peace is very important to me.  I need to wait and let the days take care of themselves.  My daughter talked to my stbx after her water polo game(my daughter's,hehe) yesterday.  My stbx's bf is in jail and she is cutting ties with him.  My daughter was so happy and relieved that she can have my wife back in her life.  As a father of course, I am worried that my wife says this now and will recant when the guy gets out of jail.  But that concern is not for today.  My son did not seem impressed by the news.  He still has stuff to work out in his head around his mother's abandoning him.  The timing is fortuitous for me. I don't want to go backwards.  There is nothing there for me.  My stbx hurt me so deeply that even thinking about going backwards makes me shudder.  The way I feel about life is just too good to risk that in anyway.  How did that change occur?  Slowly, day by day.  My thanks go to God, my friends, family and indeed the people here at DS who have buoyed me up through the healing process and who I know I can count on through the next steps.