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- So, a "friend" of my husband's has been trying to manipulate. Up to this point, I have blown it off and tried to be civil, but I am NOT feeling very civil lately. First, this person had tried to tell me that Shane had a conversation with them...
- Today is 8 months since I lost Shane. I am going to spend most of the day in the woods. tonight I am considering going through some of his clothes and other stuff in our bedroom. I absolutely do not want to move anything... but I think I am going...
- I think I am going to give up on the hope of sleeping. It must not be meant for me. I can't help but wonder if this is my punishment for looking away that day. Maybe if I had not looked away, I would have been able to prevent what happened to...
- I went to the "relay" event... then left and went to the game I almost forgot about (my daughter's first game of her senior year... varsity cheer)Shane and I always went to the home games for our boys when they played football and most of the away...
- I begged my doc for ambien, and she said no. (because of my heat thing) So... I had gotten one from a friend over the weekend. It would have been a wasted prescription. I took it, and four hours later I was still awake. When I did finally fall...
- As much as I hate to admit it... I was "taken care of".Shane always had ideas as to the woman's roll... and I let it all happen. For many years, I did not work outside the home, because he wanted to be the provider. He loosened up a bit... but not...
- Shane and I were together since we were kids... I do not know how to be alone... without the love of my life. I hate being alone, but the only person who can ever make that lonely feeling go away is Shane, and he is gone. Friends, family, my own...
- This past week, my emotions have been all over the map, which I am learning is "par for the course". I repaired a bit of damage to the garage roof (with help from my son) just a small area where a limb had hit it. But... while on the roof, I...
- I think I would like a few days alone... no actual contact with any of my friends or family. I cannot take that right now... but I think it is coming very soon. Feeling a bit weepy and mopey and I am tired of people "needing" me. I love my kids...
- I have seen a few mentions lately in comments and posts about the advice people who have never lost a mate tend to try to give those of us who have.I have to say, that although they "mean well" they infuriate me right now! I know that this whole...
- So... the other day, my son was moving the lawnmower out of the garage and asked me how long the "change oil" light had been on. I didn't even know it had one.Today, I went to town to get the filter and oil I needed so that my son can change it. ...
- I am not one to take pills, but I have tried Tylenol PM... the doctor did give me a few Xanax in the beginning, but the most I got from that was about 40 minutes of sleep. The Tylenol is no better...I have tried soaking in a bath for a while to...
- I am taking my mom to her doctor's appointment and then for lab work, and then I am taking time for myself. My daughter has plans for most of the day, so I will have some time to myself (I THINK). I am shutting off my phone and locking all of my...
- While most of the people who were around in the beginning have vanished, I do have a couple of friends that visit A LOT. I appreciate their visits, but sometimes I want time alone. But... the most annoying thing is when I have an errand to run,...
- I miss him every second of every day... I always will, until I am reunited with him. It has just been a very long day.... A couple of Shane's coworkers came over today... they had had a plaque made for him from several of his coworkers. He did...