Baxjanson
Status: I wish I were as perceptive and accepting of my strengths as I am my flaws.
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- I met back up with my Men's Support group last night, kind of a recap to see how things are going. Open format, we discuss what we want.I suprised myself - and the others - by contributing to the jokes, and laughing. We had the group leaders in...
- What really gets my goat is the so called experts brandishing the codependency brush to anyone who has been in an abusive relationship thus re victimizing the victim with finger pointing saying "you brought it on yourself " , It would seem now that...
- I was looking at the board this morning, and felt a need to share a little bit with each of you. These are, in no particular order, some of the people who have touched my life most positively in recent months. I wanted to return the...
- https://www.psychopathfree.com/content.php?140-No-You-re-Not-A-PsychopathI needed this today. An honest and understanding look at the leftovers and residue which, combined with personal traits and false conditioning, leave us shaken to the core,...
- I was just talking with my father - he was upset with me, and triggered me, and I triggered him back - he's under a lot of stress right now. But he asked me (once we were calming down) "Can I not say anything to you? What's the line between...
- On the down side, I n=now have irrefutable proof that yet another person hates me.I was cast in Oliver as Mr. Bumble.The fellow playing Fagin was also abused by his wife, and was very kind to me.I was kicked out of the cast and the company.He stayed...
- I wish I had a coat of silkThe color of the sky.I wish I had a lady fairas any butterfly.I wish I had a house of stonethat overlooks the sea.But most of all I wish that Iwere anyone but me.My life could be good right now. I am free, can do what I...
- I looked in the mirror after dragging myself out of bed this morning, and realized I was composing a suicide note in my head.Last night, after a pleasant weekend with the kids, and even a nice time grocery shopping with her, my wife posted the...
- So, a fair amount has been coming up on spiritual abuse lately, and Id like to chime in with my understanding. Now, before I start, Ill give a bit of disclosure: Im a Christian. Specifically, a Southern Baptist, and proud of it. I was raised in...
- I was given advice, and I feel it could work - just move back home, and be the man. Accept her advice, but make the choices myself. And just require her to take her own responsibility for her actions, or her give up and file for divorce. On the...
- Parent teacher conferences. Went back to the house, had lots of time face to face. Needless to say, I was correct - no apologies, no explanations, no anything. Oliver opens tonight. I wished the cast a happy performance, especially the kids. I...
- Perhaps some of the wise minds on here can be of assistance:I told my wife I was feeling feral, and acutely aware of the feeling fo being backed into a corner.She responded that she was sorry I felt like I was trapped in a corner.I told her I...
- A friend commented the other day that I don't talk about my kids much. Well, I try not to talk about anything personal much, but that includes my kids. Working by myself tonight, I realized. I'm ashamed.I'm ashamed.NOt of my kids - they're...
- Sorry, folks. I'm feeling jumpy and feral today. With a pull towards the self-destructive.I'm acutely aware of the corner I've been backed into, and its hard to focus on the here and now with such a bleak future before me.Last night they started...
- Thankfully, this isn't anyone else. Just me.Unfortunately, it isn't anyone else. Just me.I'll be going through my day, not too bad. getting things done. Then bam.No triggers, no warning. Isolated. I'll be sitting in a room with other people,...