dallyjoe

Man, the holidays were rough. Seeing excited kids and families everywhere...I just kept thinking about how we would have been celebrating with our little one next year. It would have been our last...

Time moves so slowly in the 2WW. Seriously, I think it slows down. I'm a big Dr. Who fan and he said that time isn't linear, it's a big mess of wibbly, wobbly, timey-wimey...stuff. So, I think I'm...

I'm a worrier. I worry about everything. I worry that I worry too much. And then I worry that this worries me. I take medicine for it. Which worries me. Yup, I'm a worrier.Lately, my worrying is...

Ok, just need to get a little venting out. Feeling like I have all of these emotions getting bottled up and thinking if I can just journal a little and get them out, maybe I'll feel better.I've been...

So, I am totally dreading Thanksgiving next week.My older sister is hosting our entire family. A little background - I am the 2nd of 8 children. All of whom have children except the youngest 3....

I quit teaching full time last year and am working as a substitute this year. Today I substituted in a 1st grade class. I've avoided this grade because I was so burned out with 1st graders. Plus I...

I know that men process and deal with TTC and pregnancy loss differently than women do. After our loss, my husband told me that he was mostly just worried about me. It's kind of bothered me that he...

It has been 6 weeks and amazingly, life continues. Things are getting better. Most days I can breathe.After my breakdown with my husband, he has been very tender with me. I think he had been starting...

My husband's cousin is putting on a music festival in Boulder City, NV. It's called Life is Shit. (In response to the Life is Beautiful festival being put on in Vegas.)Yup. That's my new motto.I've...

Our weekend away was really nice and relaxing. The teacher I was subbing for (who was on maternity leave) was back on Monday. I decided to take this week off - no sub jobs scheduled - so that I could...

We are visiting my mother-in-law just outside of Vegas. She has pictures of my husband when he was little all over the house. We were looking at them and he was just so darn cute. I was smiling and...

Wow. Just wow.We were hanging out with some friends last night (after they left my husband said they are the only people besides us he likes, goofy man). They learned a few years ago that he doesn't...

On Saturday, I got a hand written card from my doctor. Telling me she was thinking of me and to hang in there. She is so amazing, I just love her. But of course, that opened the floodgates.After days...

Today is 2 weeks since my miscarriage started. I feel like in general I'm doing ok. Overall, I guess I'm improving. I felt like I needed to journal mostly just to work through some feelings, so don't...

I just want my life back. I want to be ok. But I don't know how to be ok.The miscarriage was infinitely more painful than I expected, physically. I've been trying hard to not allow anger to come into...