thescaredone

I've been taking unperscribed drugs to help me focus lately. I know I probably shouldn't but I can't not take them. I spent last term studying my ass off spent so much time studying amd I was still...

So I had a sort of realization yesterday as I was chatting with a total stranger... So my depression really began first year of university; originally because I hated the university and the program I...

So today I did something I did not see coming. I actually really talked to a friend. I didn't tell her everything, I wouldn't know how, but I told her that I used to cut and I told her I tried to...

So I'm still working on losing more weight, but I'm not so active lately because I'm studying most of the time, or crying, either way I rarely go and exercise... but I have lost about six ponds since...

I don't understand how such an amazing night could actually hurt more than anything else. Last night was one of the greatest nights I've had, yet a part of me was dying of pain.So the great part...

It scares me that I realized I am no longer afraid of dying. I feel like my life isn't worth anything. I have no purpose, no goals, no life, so why be alive physically? The thought of dying isn't a...

I honestly think I'm going crazy. I realized for the first time that I actually scare myself sometimes. I get these thoughts of things I want and think I need that contradict everything I think I am....

Up until 2 weeks ago, I hadn't cut myself in almost 7 months... For some reason the past couple of weeks I've been going back into the depression mood that I was in when I first started cutting. I...

I did it. I reached my first goal. It was so unbelievably difficult, but I continued to fight through it. I still wonder sometimes how I did it. 94lb. That is like an entire person. I always hoped...

For almost four years now I've been in a long period of depression and never mentioned it to anyone except on here. Because of the depression I started cutting, I was overweight before I was...

So I've been spending most of my time trying to convince myself that by pretending all the feelings of self hatred and my lack of self confidence didn't exist I might get a chance of being happier......

It scares me. The fact that all of those feeling I used to have when I turned to cutting are coming back. I don't want to go back to that place and I thought I had been moving on but yesterday I...

So I'm back in Toronto, lost almost 70 pounds and turned 21. I should be happy. I should be enjoying my time, meeting people I should be out of the zone I was in for so long but for some reason I'm...

I think the past couple of days I've been doing better. I think I've finally reached the point in which I'm actually ready to turn things around in my life and not just say I want to change things....

So it's been a while, not because I haven't needed it but because I didn't know what to say anymore.. I feel like I'm always repeating myself it's stupid and useless. I've had a rocky month, I had...