Maybe if I lose more weight, I'll feel pretty...

So I'm still working on losing more weight, but I'm not so active lately because I'm studying most of the time, or crying, either way I rarely go and exercise... but I have lost about six ponds since my last update which is good i guess. It means I'm half way through my current goal. 
I've been thinking though... Once I reach 155 lb, I want my end goal to be 140 lb. so a total of 30 lb to go. My mom and my friends say that might be too much but I feel like maybe if I reach that level I might feel better... I thought that just by losing weight I'd feel better, but I didn't not really. But now I have moments where I dress up, do my hair and it makes me feel better, I feel pretty for a moment, that's something I never used to feel. Ever. So I keep thinking, or hoping, that if I lose more weight, I'll feel pretty more often, maybe that'll boost my confidence. I just want to believe that there's a solution to stop the way I feel most days. To tune out the voices inside my head... the ones that remind me I'm alone, the ones that convince me I'm not beautiful and thus I don't deserve friends, the voices that are ruining my life and causing my pain...