thescaredone

So I guess I have this habit of disappearing off this site every few months, but I always find my way back. To update you, not sure who you is but whoever might give a shit, I finally graduated...

So I'm graduating soon, and I should be unbelievably happy about it, but I'm not anymore. Why? Because it means I'm going back to live with my family overseas. It sucks because I finally started...

My last entry I talked about how I have finally found a friend, someone i trust, someone who has really been there for me. And it's true I do. But why do I still get the feeling of being alone? Why...

So it has been a while since I've been on here. Things have been improving in someways I guess. One thing that has definitely improved is the fact that I don't feel as alone as I used to. I now have...

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Things have been quite complicated to say the least. I keep getting back into my funk, where I feel worthless, a failure, alone, and like the world would be better without me. But the thing is I'm...

I don't understand what is happening to me these days. I'm so confused. So around Tuesday I got into this mood, I sat in bed, I cried, I felt pain, I thought about suicide and I tried to push my...

So after I went into my really bad phase a few days ago, I tried to push the only real friend I had away. I told her to do herself a favour leave me alone and find better friends cause all I bring is...

My last entry i mentioned that I finally went to the doctor to seek help for my depression. Today, a little over a month later, I have entered into one of the absolute worst moments of my life. The...

A little over 4 years later, I finally went to my doctor and admitted that I've been depressed. It was probably one of the most difficult conversations I've ever had. I was shaking the whole time, my...

So lately I haven't been sleeping at all, and at first I tried to convince myself that it was something physical... I went to the Doctor and they gave me these sleeping pills for people with insomnia...

Things have been up and down lately. Though things were so much better when I last posted here, these days things haven't been so great. The thoughts and voices in my head are back. That voice that...

I'm making progress and it feels really good. I'm finally starting to feel better, about myself and about my life... I still get those rush of emotions every once in a while but they're WAAAAY less...

I've been working my ass off lately and it hasn't paid off as well as I hoped. I've been studying like crazy, spending days at a time at the library reading, making notes, going over slides, writing...

I've been working my ass off lately and it hasn't paid off as well as I hoped. I've been studying like crazy, spending days at a time at the library reading, making notes, going over slides, writing...