So I've been spending most of my time trying to convince myself that by pretending all the feelings of self hatred and my lack of self confidence didn't exist I might get a chance of being happier... but repressing them amd pretending they're not there hasn't really helped... I'm back to spending days in my apartment ordering in and seeing no one for days at a time :( I honestly thought that by losing the wieght I would at least feel a little better but I don't. I thought if I gave it time things woll just work themselves out but they haven't :( I don't know how to act anymore... A part of me just wants to give up and do absolutely nothing and just sit and cry and be depressed but another part of me wants to get out of the shit hole and be normal again not depressed not constantly hating all aspects of myself and all that I just don't know how to make that second part of me become the dominant part and actually listen to it and take action!