lucidak

I survived the night. The funny thing is we had so little apart from regular texts, that I don't have the urge to pick up the phone and call him at night. Emails have been the main form of contact...

Two weeks since i joined this group and three since I broke up. And I am plunged into sadeness again because he chose to give me my Christmas Present, a Love Story signed by the American Author he...

Last night I realised that if my ex was to come back into my life, I didn't actually want the life we had. It would have meant living parallel lives with very little overlap and for someone like me...

I survived the weekend, but lot of sadness about the breakup of my relationship. Can't even contemplate another relationship at the moment. But maybe one day. The 6 month goal is a good one. And...

Watching young Jessie Hillel on NZ's got Talent on Youtube and tears are welling up. But all good tears. Doing something that makes me happy.Didn't sleep too well. A lot of contemplation of my ex and...

I slept well last night. First time in a long time. Writing on the discussion board helped get the overwhelming feeling of needing contact with him out of me and then I was able to relax. Got two...

Still single. Resisted the advances of someone who approached me. Didn't go looking for love or contact my ex during a weak moment.

The days are clicking over so fast. I went to the Uni this morning and completed the paperwork other than one more transcript for my last Postgrad. Then I met with the Prof of Anthropology who said I...

This morning I finally made it to the lab for my blood tests. Yay! Then I came home and did some work on my Uni application. My CV has been updated and uploaded and I scanned and uploaded my...

This morning I woke up early and finished my blog post. The final bits came together really well. A part of me is scared I will run out of ideas about what to write for next week because I used two...

A tougher than usual day. I thought a lot about my ex. When we first met, we used to meet on Tuesday nights for dinner and then later on Wednesdays as well. Knowing I am on my own tonight and...

I woke up this morning and felt that desperate longing to see my ex. I even dreamed about him last night. So no surprise really. Again I let the feeling sit with me and then finally managed to write...

Last night I got an email from my ex in reply to a note I sent last Sunday. He had one of my library books that I wanted him to return and I also wanted to say goodbye as I wasn't able to do so when...

Another day without contact. 7 whole days since last Sunday. I am very proud of myself. Today I had friends visit. That felt good. Then a brief appearance at a birthday party next door and then a...

Today I started the day by having a shower which is a luxury most mornings when I have to get my son ready for school and dressed in clothes that made me feel good including nice underwear. I even...