Baby Steps Day 5

I woke up this morning and felt that desperate longing to see my ex. I even dreamed about him last night. So no surprise really. Again I let the feeling sit with me and then finally managed to write an email saying I will drop off his container sometime this morning and for him to drop off my documents at his convenience. It was a simple solution and gave him fair warning I was doing that and left it up to him if he should choose to say hi.
Then I went to my weekly therapy session. Always something to look forward to. She is such a positive woman and I come away feeling like I can do anything. Today was no exception and I felt in a good place to drop off the stuff at my ex's. I felt nothing as I did that. A curious detached feeling. So all good.
 
He acknowledged my email and wished me a good week. I felt tempted to reply back saying I had dropped it off and prolong the contact. But didn't do that.
 
I managed not to have a second coffee today and had a home cooked meal for lunch.On the way home from my ex's place I picked up two hitchhikers, girls who needed a ride to the station. That felt good to be able to help.
Now I have a couple of hours to myself and the weather looks like it is clearing up, so maybe even a walk before I pick my son up from school in about 3 hours.