I'm glad to have the day off, but the house is so empty and quiet it makes me sad.  I still cry every morning and don't know when this will ever stop.  Thankfully the kids will all be here later today for a cookout. I've got a ton of food so they won't go hungry and they make me laugh which I can always look forward to.   I had asked my friend to help me go through some of Gene's clothes and get rid of them but changed my mind before she left.  I'm just not ready to deal with it yet.  I still feel guilty about throwing away the clothes the hospital sent home even though they were cut to shreds and of no use to anyone.  It's as if I'm giving him away.  I know that's not realistic, but it's how it feels right now.  I suppose the time will come when I'm ready, but that's not today.  

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feliciac
feliciac

In time you will be ready to get rid of some of his stuff but I know from those I know who lost their husbands, they don\'t get rid of everything. Don\'t feel guilty, ok? When you are up to it, only get rid of the things you know that if he was still here would have gotten rid of anyway. Kind of like when we clean out our clothes. No rush, sweetie, you will know when it is time. P.S. Can I come over for dinner tonight? Since you said there is going to have so much left overs. xoxoxoox
lindalun
lindalun

I carry the clothes the hospital gave me in shreds also in my car and refuse to get rid of it. Like you I have not gotten rid of any of his clothes they are still in the closet . I smell them often and cry because I want him back. Crying seems to be my best friend right now and it will continue I don\'t know for how long. It is a long journey and I am glad that DS is there for us to guide us and help us through this journey. Take care and lots of hugs Linda