Too much to carry
My grief is too heavy and the sadness too much to carry around some days. There are moments when all I want isjust one minute of peace, one moment that I feel normal. But it doesn't happen. Still the only peace I find is in sleeping. Even when people are all around me I feel so lost and vulnerable. Today I don't know how to make it through the tears. i miss Gene so much and it seems to be getting worse instead of better. He's gone from me forever, this I can't deny any longer. The finality of it all is just overwhelming. No more hugs, no more kisses, no more time together to do all the things we planned. My life is an empty well, my heart broken, my soul aching. I can't look ahead and I can't look back. I'm stuck here in this darkness that has become my life.
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Just get through one day at a time, you don\'t need to think about the future, just get through today.
Hi Carol, Oh my heart aches for you and my prayers are with you! Have you went to the bereavement group here on DS? Maybe that will help some. I\'ve met a couple of ladies there (who I met in the smoking group)they lost there son\'s to drug addiction! Anyway they know the pain you are in. One of my friends name on the site is Ihart she is a lovely lady and she writes to her son (Richard) at the bottom of every post! Maybe you can look her up. They really help each other with there grief and loss. Love and Blessings, Sandy
You are right this pain so great that it consumes us. I feel so lonely and empty and it does not matter how much people are around us. Nothing seems to replace that void that is buried deep inside us. I think that they only hope that makes us keep going is that we have faith that someday we will see each other again to never be separated ever. I hope that you have better days to come and that God gives you the strenght that you need. Lots of hugs Linda