It's been a trying day.  I had the day off from work for Veteran's Day and have been trying to force my self to do SOMETHING other than lying around feeling anxious and depressed.  I managed to get my butt up and clean out my car, order some Christmas gifts for my son, go through some paperwork and do some filing.    I just never feel like I do enough, cause there is so much to do!  Then I get in my funk and everything starts piling up and makes me feel even worse.  I am looking for alternative therapies for dealing with menopause and reading as much as I can on the subject.  I never thought I'd be where I am right now in my life.  Up until three years ago, I was confident, secure with who I was, knew what I wanted, happy, laid back and loving life.  Now I feel useless, irritable, insecure and unlovable.  But I'm working on getting back to where I was.  I am accepting that fact that I miss my son like crazy since he's moved out and that there is a light at the end.  I can feel it inside, I just need to work harder to get there.  My husband has been so supportive, even when I'm at my worse.  He tries so hard to get me out and I never want to go anywhere.  I've lost interest in so many things I used to love--riding on the motorcycle, gardening, crafting.  My gardens look like heck and I think we went riding once this summer.  I haven't given up though, I'll fight through this and come out better for it on the other side.