Just surviving
After two years, I still feel like I'm just going through the motions of life. I have no ambition to do anything around the house and it still feels so overwhelming. I don't know that I will ever be the same again. I used to absolutely love music, gardening, painting. Now I don't even care if anything gets done. I miss Gene so much I just want to crawl up in bed and not get out some days. Feel like I'm constantly fighting back tears especially on days like today. I just want to go to my car and cry my pain away. I know many of you have gone through the same things but please tell me, does it ever get better. Do I have anything to look forward to in the future. Will I ever be "me" again. Right now I don't care about anything.
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The journey ahead of us is very hard. I am approaching two years on July 4 and it is getting difficult. The memories are coming back and I find myself crying more often, longing for him more and missing him more than ever. I pretend that everything is okey but it is not and like you I don\'t want to get out of bed or do anything. I just want him near me. I don\'t know if we will ever be the same without them but I pray that I find the strenght to keep moving. Hope that you find the strenght to keep moving. Hugs Linda
Thanks Linda. Sometimes it just helps to know that I\'m not alone in all this.