I miss my eating disorder a lot right now. I'm sick of using cutting as a way of coping with everything going on in my head. I liked being anorexic better. I wish I still had the self control and willpower to be anorexic but I've become lazy and weak. I miss the feeling after I successfully starved my self for a day. I miss the lightheaded dizzy feeling whenever I stood up. I miss my bones sticking out. Thats it. Tomorrow I am restricting my calories again. I am going to stop cutting and start starving.
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http://www.jaredstory.com/depression_food_therapy.html
I would like to see you try what is on this link first before you start starving yourself. Read it and try to take some of it to heart.
Sometimes, struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If we were to go through our life without any obstacles, we would be crippled. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. Give every opportunity a chance, leave no room for regrets.
I LOVE the last two sentences. I\'m going to put that here in front of my computer, as this is where I\'m spending my time these days.
The real sin against life is to abuse and destroy beauty, even one\'s own -even more, one\'s own, for that has been put in our care and we are responsible for its well-being.
Katherine Anne Porter