Rhoda22

i feel crappy i must have massive allergies kicking in a cold or heaven forbid the flu it would be just my luck and get the flu now after hibernating all winter to keep from getting it.ugh.i called...

damn my temper got the better of me after i felt provolked out aomething on fb i probably should not have and his family saw it so they commented i have not made any friends cause he is soo nosy and...

so today is one that i want to be over i am feeling depressed like i have no strength left i have been keeping to the bedroom for days my "roomie" is being a real d**k he was in the shower so i...

today it took everything to keep myself from loosing it being told what not to do because he did not want me to  open the sliding door and let the heat out to say i told you not to do that damn you...

i am making the plans i need to make to into the shelter and get moved up north i will get shoved to the top of the housing list and get me a place to live and get me a therapy cat i have never not...

so i am awake at this un-godly hour i only call it that when i was asleep then wake up early this time it was a nightmare the details are gone i do know i was screaming and i woke up doing a whisper...

i am waiting to get into a womens shelter. the guy i'm leaving wont take any kind of responsibity for things.i feel pretty safe at the moment but if things get worse i will call the crisis line and...

so i have been abused all my life got out of a abusive relationship of 14 years 6 years married got out april 2011.now i have a new guy-think i might have jumped the gun now today he is telling me he...

i am starting to wonder about myself.am i stuck in victim mode.am i hanging on to the pain so i am not tempted to forgive and give people chance after chance because that is what "he"always told me...

i sit here and wonderexactly what have i doneto get treated this wayhurt by everyonei've treated othersthe way i've always donerespectfully and kindthe way god would have donelike him i find myself...

the art of silencelost and lonelythe turbulent winds carry meto places unfamiliarwhere or what they turn out to beis completly utterly unknown to mei follow my instincts which are often wrongi try...

invisible walls hold me inkeep me safe from a world i dont fit inbroken soul broken heartmake ot hard to mendtrust is not easytry to keep it all insad eyes show the painof all past sinsi cant escape...

another day gone wrong i had a therapy apt this morning that i did not get to.the stupid medical appointment ride company i use screwed me again they did not have my ride booked or even in their...

two years ago i got a divorce he was verbally emotionally psychologically abusive the only thing i had to help keep me going were my/our 2cats ming and shang  they always knew when i needed them in...

i got a call from the investigator the DNA results are not back yet for me they took my dads DNA and that came back . i never even opened the suitcase that i had with me during that weekend visit - i...