waiting
i am waiting to get into a womens shelter. the guy i'm leaving wont take any kind of responsibity for things.i feel pretty safe at the moment but if things get worse i will call the crisis line and the police immediatly. i am able to get more of my stuff packed and into the garage until i can arrange to get it in a couple of weeks or so. i do not know if i will be able to get online when i go and if so what kind of restrictions the shelter may have. whne i get into the shelter i will apply for emergency housing and because of the abuse and my mental health disability i will get bumped straight to the top of the list and can start the healing process fully this guy has basically made it impossible to get anywhere. i will not have to rely on others to get to where i need to go i have lived in that town for years and am soo comfortable there only thing my x-husband lives in that town i want NOTHING to do with my x and though i may see him in passing i know i want nothing to do with him!!! i am going to a place i know that i love being there that has resources this area doesn't. there is a bus system i am not afraid to use know all the routes or can figure out what one i don't know. i even have a few friends there.at the moment i live about 20 miles from any doctor and my medical pays for my ride if they don't screw it up and i feel bad that the taxpayers get the bill-there i just need a bus pass for 30.00 a month right now it would cost me 30.00 one way. I am looking foreward to being on my own nobody to please but myself and concentrate on claiming my life for myself again. i wish i had never started this relationship but am glad that i didn't waste too much of my time on it. i was with my x for 14 years the last 6 we were married finally i will be free to be me and find out who i am now versus who i was then.this does bring me some hope and i wont be getting into a relationship any time soon.i will continue to stay connected and keep you who follow this updated. i may even take some pictures of the things around me and post them for you all to see.well i am getting tired gotta go get boxes in the morning.
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You just follow your heart, it will never let you down. Wishing your new transition goes smooth and uneventful, Blaine
thank you soo very much i know my heart is saying \"go back home where you were happy\" i used to think i hated that town but now it calls to me even been dreaming about it last night.