???????? hopeless

i sit here and wonder
exactly what have i done
to get treated this way
hurt by everyone
i've treated others
the way i've always done
respectfully and kind
the way god would have done
like him i find myself persecuted
now i trust no one
not when i get nailed to a cross
again and again
i have no blood left to shed
forsaken for sure in the end
it was here on this site
the only place i can find compassion
i have worn my heart on my sleeve
once a hopeful heart
now just bleeds bleeds bleeds
this world and life is starting
to mean nothing anymore to me
want to go and forever sleep