emotional
so today is one that i want to be over i am feeling depressed like i have no strength left i have been keeping to the bedroom for days my "roomie" is being a real d**k he was in the shower so i decided to watch my cat from hell he came out looked at the tv and said "i'm not watching any animal shit" so i turned the channel i have been enjoying my free month trial of netflix but damn i don't want to feel locked in this room all the time! i went for a short walk in the rain and it felt real good i have always loved the rain and gloom it seems to reflect how i feel that i don't have to hide behind a false smile that isn't true to how i feel.and there you have it i put a smile on my face a false bravado so that nobody can see the pain in my eyes my eyes have always betrayed me i love to wear sunglasses so people can't see me not that i feel anyone can see me anyway or if they do they do not give a damn happiness seems like just an illusion today and i am wondering if i will ever fully enjoy the sun on my face.
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Actually rain will cleanse your mind body and spirit, you must know this on some level since you like walking in it, I do too, I find it brings me some peaceful moments. Just hang tight darling, the future looks bright for you, just a few more \"cloudy days\" ahead yet, it won\'t be long. Big (((((((HUGS)))))))),Blaine
thank you very much Blaine it was great to get your words of encouragement i just need to keep the light at the end of the tunnel in sight although it seems soo dim at the moment
I\'m in that tunnel too, just jump on this Buffalos back and we\'ll ride out together.
jumping on LOL :)
Forgot to tell you, don\'t mind the aroma lol