what a day
today it took everything to keep myself from loosing it being told what not to do because he did not want me to open the sliding door and let the heat out to say i told you not to do that damn you why cant you just listen. german blood boiled to the surface i wanted to lash out verbally hurt him back sooo badly.i FORCED myself outside forced myself to take some deep breaths reminded myself that he isnt worth it and soon enough i would be free and have my life to live my own rules no more man telling me what to do or trto guilt me into staying so he would be able to pay his bills that i wouldnt make it on my own i will be lost without him i am so sick of this crap and in a couple of weeks i will be safe people will be kind and compassionate tell me i am worthy strong all the support i need will be there i will get back to find myself again it will be soo good for me and that is how i am staying strong through this it is not letting what he says getting the total best of me and supressing that german blood in me get out pretty bad when you start to fear your own temper especially when you have soo much anger inside from all the abuse neglect
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You are a very strong woman. You will get back to findin yourself, I can feel it
Yes your are strong, you are worthy plus many, many more. You also possess and big beautiful heart and thats a wonderful attribute in this world, Hoping you have a better day today, Blaine