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• Depression
  

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  Posted: 11/29/2019

  texas_hippy commented on the discussion what is worse than depression?.

• Depression
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: texas_hippy

  Posted: 11/29/2019

  texas_hippy commented on the discussion what is worse than depression?.

• Depression
  

  what is worse than depression?

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  Last Reply: texas_hippy 11/29/2019

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  Let me tell you, as I see it: what is worse than depression?What is worse than waking up every day to the same hole in one's chest, where the heart used to be?What is worse than having good memories come into your head, especially when you don't want them?What is worse than being alone, needing a hug, a kiss, a possible "I love you..."You'd think depression is worse than those things, and you would be totally right.The feeling of: "ok, a gun shot would hurt, only for a second, and is loud and...

• Depression
  

  if it isn't memories of my "wife" it's Social Secu

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  Posted: 11/25/2019

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  I have written at least five letters to her, unsure which one will get them: will it be my-wife or will it be the protector? I guess, in a way it does not matter which one gets them, but if it is the protector, I'm pretty sure they end up in the oval file before they're even opened. This takes into account that the SS Guard (jr Gestapo Bitch), "the landlady" (long time friends of my-wife doesn't take the letters and tosses them, just for the hell of it.  SS Guard and her P**ckhead son,...

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 08/18/2019

  texas_hippy became friends with shelda.

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 08/18/2019

  texas_hippy became friends with shelda.

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  Journal Comment

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  Posted: 10/06/2019

  texas_hippy commented on patti22's journal The commercial

• Anger Management
  

  why does it seem there's ALWAYS one of these...

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  Last Reply: patti22 10/15/2019

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  I haven't been that much angry lately. Well right now, that's not a really good thing for me. I "control" my anger, I use it to fuel my energy to do the things I need to do.  It is a specific anger, the source, that is...not a generalized one.  I would say what the source is, but I don't need some self-righteous prick to come out of the woodwork and attack me, like one did in another group.This is the thing: why are there particular idiots out there who read one or two entries and think they...

• Schizophrenia
  

  a "luxury" of schizophrenia (etc)

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  Posted: 10/05/2019

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  Today is my step-daughter's birthday. Since the fall of my world, and her's of course, she's been living in L.A. She finally wrote me back on FB, tells me she finally spoke with her "mother"...I guess somehow the protector let her go, hopefully that means she lives elsewhere, where she feels safe, free of fear.She told me she "seems" happy.Well, maybe so. I know if this is indeed my "wife," she can seem happy, it would be a rather unique "luxury" of the disorder. Rewired brain to cope with my...

• Schizophrenia
  

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  Posted: 10/04/2019

  texas_hippy commented on the discussion been rethinking this, need info.

• Schizophrenia
  

  been rethinking this, need info

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  Last Reply: texas_hippy 10/04/2019

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  too long of a story to retell, it's all here anyway.been doing some rethink on this. i based a lot on what my 'wife" (alter?) said one night. i had asked her to let me have my wife back, and made some reference to who was oroginal and who was alter. she looked at me: "how do you know that i'm not the original?"  she said it with a lot of conviction but also in a very snide way.since i don't know psychology much at all, much less shit like this, well, my tortured mind accepted the possibility...

• Loneliness
  

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  Posted: 10/04/2019

  texas_hippy commented on the discussion well that's a push back to zero.

• Loneliness
  

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  Posted: 10/01/2019

  texas_hippy commented on the discussion well that's a push back to zero.

• Loneliness
  

  well that's a push back to zero

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  Last Reply: texas_hippy 10/04/2019

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  A couple weeks ago I met a lovely lady. We agreed to go at her pace since she has some trust issues.  Hell, doesn't everybody have some kind of issues? I'm so tired of hearing that damn word. It's like when I was doing alcohol/drug councelling and I'd ask them a questtion and all I got was that insipid remark: "It is what it is..." I felt like bitch slapping them and saying: "Fuck no itisn't..."Anyway. Though I enjoyed her company, she acted more like all she wanted was...nothing.  I guess...

• Loneliness
  

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  Posted: 09/30/2019

  texas_hippy commented on the discussion impossible.