arfie
Status: knowledge is all past tense. i can't **know** a thing until it has already happened. stay in the present tense. stay ignorant.
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Hubby has been handling the pediatric care since the maskite invasion. Well over a year now but still something less than two years. Our grandfamily officially formed on August 14, 2019. He has been...
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In this context, I speak of self-censorship. My self-censoring is far more harsh and enforced than political censors are capable of. By my childhood conditioning, they are faster and more absolute...
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Among the louder echoes in the grieving of my DIL are the FB cliches of MILs who ? ? ? The words for those cliches rapid cycle faster than a TV sitcom, but for this sorting I will call ^it^ turn...
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YS's in-laws are threatening litigation again. It feels like just last week that they signed off on the current court settlement. Yea, the one they could not carry through on because of their...
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The stability here onboard our little ship of fools is starting to feel sustainable enough to take for granted. The past few weekends have felt like welcome opportunities to rest and enjoy one...
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As my River Dreams sink silently into the pools of my second parenting career, The Pirate's Den continues to carry less romantic ownership responsibilities. Empty, neglected buildings are a huge...
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Still I am haunted by the question, "Which of my sons died first?" This haunting began during YS's funeral while ES polished the Toxic Mom crown he bequeathed me however many years ago. Long enough...
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Some days I believe I am getting a solid enough handle on my mask phobia to lose a bit of the paranoia attached. It's been some odd months since I've had a meltdown when forced to speak to a maskite....
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ES continues heavy on my mind. Nothing new there. Even in estrangement and death, the parent/chil bond remains a force of nature. Silent you stand on the edge of my sight. No words do you speak to...
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I find myself calling my "Guit-Chi" by acronym. GCT. Guit-Chi Therapy. I seldom speak of my guit-chi aloud, so it is highly probable that I havenae ever called it by acronym in real-time...
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The entire household has had allergy symptoms for the past week or two. A post-nasal drip doesn't mean what it did in the 2019 allergy season when we fielded the trauma induced climate change of the...
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My over-developed questioning nature has received quite allot of psychotherapy and still requires a massive drawer in my therapy toolbox to hold my ground in the swirling fog of my mental illness....
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My most effective psychotherapy has mostly been through the VA. However Federal the institution, the VA centers are quite localized. My old VA connections cannot help me much in this new location. In...
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With the second anniversary of the fatal car wreck upon us, the craving for predictable stability remains a critical need onboard our little ship of fools. This morning was a touch of heavan I would...
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The local school district is holding their volunteer orientation this morning. My plans to attend have my mask phobia rip roaring. The Masky Dask hasnae gained many disciples in this smallish ag...
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