Cobalt
Status: "It's getting better all the time." ~ Paul McCartney
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- I read a journal entry from three years ago and my complaints were exactly the same as now. Nothing had changed. I still feel the same way. I still am doing the same things. I thought back to a time not so long ago when I didn't feel this...
- Update: I seriously miscalculated that I could continue to successfully work with the women of the board for which I was president. One of the ancillary members requested that a woman, who had been particularly abusive to me, be assigned an...
- I am experiencing depression in a big way because I have put myself into two positions that are making me miserable and I have not chosen to walk away. My hubby and I moved to a new state for our retirement home. I took a new position in this state...
- I'm a bit livid. There have been no face to face CODA meetings in California for two years. TWO YEARS. I have not been attending CODA meetings online because it's not private to do so in my house and I don't want to go sit in my car somewhere just...
- I am at a better place with my ex and his wife than I have ever been. I can actually have a conversation with him on the phone and keep my cool. When either one of them does something annoying I just do an eyeroll, chalk it up to them being...
- The first few weeks of shutdown were very stressful for me, mostly because I didn't know what would happen with work. My site transitioned well over to working from home and I did not have a loss in pay. Working from home hasn't been so bad but...
- I have really been struggling lately with self worth. There are many things I can do well and I have a great job that I enjoy. I make good money and I'm poised to do well financially for retirement.However, I'm depressed. It's mild. I can...
- I had a few concerns regarding a coworker who also does my same job but at a different site. Last year we both attended a training together and the whole time we were there she spent a lot of time promoting a particular method that is used in our...
- Just offering my help if anyone is in need or has questions about California regulations or California education code for special education. I have been parenting my sons and daughter for more than 20 years in this state of California and know a...
- I finally went to my first Coda meeting yesterday. The good: the meeting was well organized, ran on time, reviewed important readings, spent some time focusing on one important behavior of codependency/recovery, allowed ample time for open...
- I used to have a good grip on what I felt was letting go of "the things I cannot change," but in my marriage I am having difficulty doing that. I don't know if it's my history of being abused, or finding out that my ex husband was secretly dating...
- I realized this past week that I need to take the time to grieve. I lived a lot of years throughout my life where I couldn't do any grieving because I was so distracted and busy caring for others and being entrenched in unhealthy attachments that...
- My husband finally admitted this morning that the fibromyalgia has strained our relationship. He complained about me not having energy most nights to do things together, but he also doesn't suggest many ways that we can spend time together...
- I am still in this constant struggle to live my own life unenmeshed with my husband. My husband does not want to do things with me. Every suggestion that I have he turns down unless it's watching a movie (where there's no interaction). We have...
- Last year before I knew what was wrong with me I had a really great trip visiting with my husband's family in Illinois. Very little to no painduringthe whole trip, slept well, and had enough energy to do what we did each day while visiting. When...