Jimbobaronio
Status: Still wonder if I will ever be in control of me...
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- I heard the birds chirping. I like thatBut I was incredibly angry.I must have had a dream I do not recall.All that kept going through my mind was I understand why people take a gun and shoot up a room full of kids.Not that I would do that. What I...
- Dad was a sadistic fuck.I have recall of being naked about 4 years old and being belt whipped and screaming in pain.Then I have the 'feeling'. A foggy memory accompanied by the feeling that something happened. I believe the feelings now because I...
- Sometimes the flashbacks are so utterly overwhelming I am stunded and unable to move.Or just shake...Once I even curled up on the floor in the fetal position sucking my thumb and crying. I was 46 when that happened.What I want to do is vent them...
- Caution: This caused me deep reflection. It did not trigger me just made mre think about the life long yucky feeling I know will always be there.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V_jIogFHxQY
- Well I am trying to rewrite a resume. I have one written. Then I went to a class on how to write a resume and now I see I need to rewrite it.I have been trying for a few weeks. Pretty much I can't do much of anything. The PTSD is eating me...
- I was coaching my daughter's volleyball game today.I looked at the team and saw one of the girls with the ball ready to serve.I told her to give it to the other kid to serve.The ref looked at me and said it was her turn to serve. the other side...
- I read another post about a five year old going to the gyno and I almost flipped out.I have all these messed up memories that keep coming back.They started when I was 44.Fourty fucking Four. I live my life and don't remember any of it.Then BAM one...
- Anyone normal?
- I am finding it difficult to do much of anything.I got fired a few weeks ago.I can barely function. I need to find a job and instead I do anything but look.I will do anything to avoid what I need to be doing.WTF?!?Why?I obsess over stupid shit.I...
- I am glad the father died when I was 9. Just waiting... any day now the mom will go too.He used and abused me.Shared me with his friends.It is sad to be glad he is dead.Gone, never to come back.All the things he should have taught his boy growing...
- Dad raped my sister and I. From my birth to his death when I was nine he used and abused me.First memory came in 2009 when I was 44.Weird how that gets blocked out.Anyway...Had a funky messed up flashback within about 15 minutes of leaving my last...
- I read a post (or most of them) from an anonymous blog. Telling of all the weird stuff the author kept doing. He stated it was common for PTSD to make people do this stuff.One of his examples: Watch porn for four hours while masturbating. I have...
- I did not remember any of the sexual assault from my father until I was 44. He attacked my sister and me until he died when I was 9.For three years now these weird memories flood my mind. At first I did not believe them. Until I found the courage...
- Any help with how to bring up the subject that I have multiples to my therapist.?A voice in my head screams at me every time I think about it."NOOOOOO, Don't tell her" "Shut Your Mouth" I sit in fear.I know of 12 alters myself through journal...
- I am finding it difficult to find anyone that I can relate to.I mean I understand that all of the stories people are share are horrible.Locally I have tried to find a support group but there are never anywith men. Always with women and there is no...