Jimbobaronio
Status: Still wonder if I will ever be in control of me...
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- Well the trouble is with her personal life I guess.But it really caused me trouble.I have been seeing her for a year and a half. The last year has been twice a week.A couple weeks ago the night before my appointment I received an email that she was...
- I am not sure who is the sad one.Maybe the little guy.I saw an ad for The Lion King. We have seen it three times.Once on vacation in Hawaii. That was fun.Now without income it makes it difficult to buy tickets.and I cried a little. Thinking we...
- ShitI can't seem to do anything of importance.I try to get control and work on my computer and the next thing I know I am standing by the lamp on the other side of the room.It just happens. I wake up somewhere else.I tried to make a declaration...
- You realized or remember (as was my case) that you were your daddy's lover? The flash backs have subsided for the last couple of years. But there was several months that very explicit sexual actions were just popping into my head.As a man figuring...
- The last seven years have been a blur. And passed by oh so fast.Chasing a long held hunch, I recently had validation of its existence. or more appropriately, Their existence.I have not posted since like last February. Almost a year and yet is...
- Since 2010 I have been chasing a hunch. The feeling I am not just one individual.I have been seeing a therapist for about 15 months twice a week.about 6 months ago she said that she did NOT think I had DID. Then three sessions ago she asked if I...
- Hello been a while...I lurk and read just have not posted much.I have been seeing my Therapist since August.No help or changes yet.We upped my sessions to two times a week and the insurance okayed it. Thankfully. I find the sessions weird at...
- I have posted a few times about trying to find a therapist. What a nightmare it has been.A Quick recap:February:- saw a Therapist - She told me she could not help me, my problems where beyond her abilities. She referred me to another T.Second...
- I saw a therapist and she was passive aggressive.She was the third in this unending search for help.We sit and she is barely looking at me because she keeps typing shit into her computer. She glances at me and then types. Glances back and then...
- I have been following and reading Michele's blog for a while.The fact that she had PTSD and found ways to overcome the symptoms is inspiring.Thought I would pass along this article because I find I am stuck in the trauma mode and when people say...
- I love me the marijuana.I hear a lot of people with PTSD find ways to cope by self medication.I hate PTSD.I hate the symptoms.I hate that I can't work.I hate that I am broke and live in a friend's basement.Life is sucking badly right now.I know that...
- I hate the saying: "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger." I don't feel so strong. In fact: I don't feel at all.Well, maybe sometimes, but it has to be about something painful to a kid. Then I feel it.Like the movie from way back, "My Girl" ...
- I wish I could be a stand up comedian.The best comedians use examples from life and build an entire story. Making millions of people laugh. And the good ones make millions of dollars doing it.But what would my joke be?"Yeah, I'm really pissed off...
- I grew up with a gay bashing mother. I grew up with a father who was very sexual with me.So on the one hand dad and I had sex and on the other I was told repeatedly that sex between to males was completely wrong. My present mind understands that...
- Ugg...So much for being out of money and using the free Medicaid program.It sucks.I am stuck with what I can get.I go in for an appointment yesterday. First time I met this woman. We get the introductions out of the way and she says, "Now for the...