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My 7 yr old showed me this morning that he can tie his shoes by himself and that made me so happy but it got me thinking about the little things that I used to share with my H, the kids milestones...

I was talking to the stbx, talked about the weather, work, the kids and then about the lawyer and the divorce.  How can we be having a normal conversation and just as quick he can jump to the D...

Before we talked the D word, I was afraid to say what was on my mind, I didnt want my stbx to be upset at me, things were not good and I didnt want to cause arguments.  But now, what the hell, I...

Yesterday was a miserable day - miss my stbx more than anything, cried in the shower, cleaned all day and went to the movies with the kids but even before we left I didnt feel like doing anything, I...

During the week life seems so much easier - is a routine - get up, get the kids ready, go to work, kids in school, pick them up, homework and dinner, bed and then all over again the next day but the...

I went to my IC today and I felt good to let it all out, to hear me talking about the hurt, about re-establishing new goals and a new future.  I 'still don't see my complete set of goals and new...

How can one minute I'm at the top of the mountain and the next minute it seems like I'm falling?  Thinking about my stbx don't open the flood gates anymore but tonight I went out with my kids and I...

When I was in college my bf cheated on me and one of my friends told me I was inside a crystal box and I couldn't see the outside but that as soon as I got out of that box things would look...

Went out shopping with one of my friends, it felt good to be out with my friend, to have fun, to forget for a little while, to feel normal, to feel like no matter what I'll be ok, that I will have...

Last night I cried in the shower but it wasnt a hysterical crying, it was healing to just let the tears roll down my face.  I'm grieving the loss of what's never going to be again.  My H called...

Before my H I had dignity and pride.  If a man didnt want to talk or call me, be it, keep walking with my head help high, his loss. If he didnt want to be with me, why bother with someone that didnt...

Im seating at home waiting for my children and the loneliness and emptiness of the house is so overwhelming.  I miss my stbx so much.  I'm not begging or holdig out hope that things will change but...

Today is the day I see the divorce lawyer - is like a nightmare but at the same time I feel like I'm moving forward and not stuck hoping for things to get better.  Never in a millon years I would...

I was away from DS for a while cause reading about so much pain and hurt was making me sad.  My H has been deployed for 6 months now and even though things were looking up and heading in the right...

I carry my hurt and my pain with me everwhere I go - that is carry on baggage and I can't check it in but the days are getting better.  I don't cry everyday - I don't feel dying - I'm starting to...