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Today is the one year anniversary since my dad passed away - I'm sad and upset at myself at the same time.  When my dad passed away mt stbx and me were already having problems - he went to the...

Before my H joined the Army we have just moved into my home town - I got a good job but he was having a hard time getting a decent job.  We were talking yesterday and he said "Things would have been...

I'm so upset as my stbx right now - he wants the kids to live with him cause he wants to spent time with them, he wants to see them all the time not just sometimes - well fuck no.  I'm the one that...

The weekend was awesome!!! We started Friday and only stop Monday cause I needed to do laundry and clean the house.  Monday talked to my stbx and my day just went from good to crappy.  After...

My H called today to talk to the kids and I talked to him, just miscellaneous stuff about work and the kids, the friendship is still there, we get along great, we talked and I can't help but wish...

The weekend have been wonderful so far!!!!!! Took care of myself, went to the movies with the kids, went to the craft fair and haunted hayride and we had a really good time.  On the drive there we...

I love my H, I love him with all my heart and I keep wishing that things would've been different but at the same time I keep moving forward.  Some TLC for me today, got me a manicure and pedicure,...

So today is my H birthday, it makes me sad that we are not celebrating together, that the last Bday we celebrated together was going to be the last, I'm treasuring that last memory until the day I...

We went from a planned family vacation to Florida to divorce cause things were not working out, then to just him and the kids going to FL but I was still getting to see him, to him just coming back...

Your dreams and your future can change in the blink of an eye.  I have to rethink my future and dream new dreams. On ocassions when I think about it I feel a knot in the pit of my stomach, I feel...

My H is in the Army and currently in Afghanistan, when he left we were trying to work things out but things didnt work out and we are getting a divorce.  His 2 week break is coming, it is in January...

Last night I went through my cards and letters - got rid of all the cards and letters I got from my stbx.  That was difficult, I cried reading what I meant to him in the past and while I threw them...

My 7 yr old showed me this morning that he can tie his shoes by himself and that made me so happy but it got me thinking about the little things that I used to share with my H, the kids milestones...

I was talking to the stbx, talked about the weather, work, the kids and then about the lawyer and the divorce.  How can we be having a normal conversation and just as quick he can jump to the D...

Before we talked the D word, I was afraid to say what was on my mind, I didnt want my stbx to be upset at me, things were not good and I didnt want to cause arguments.  But now, what the hell, I...