Dignity and pride

Before my H I had dignity and pride.  If a man didnt want to talk or call me, be it, keep walking with my head help high, his loss. If he didnt want to be with me, why bother with someone that didnt want me by his side, I would've walk away and never look back.  In the past year, I lost myself, I lost my dignity, my pride.  I cried, I begged, I begged him not to divorce me, I begged him not to leave me, I begged him even after he told me he has fallen in love with OW, I faced rejection over and over.  In the last few months I have found parts of myself that I thought were lost, I regained some of my pride and dignity, somehow I have regained some of my old self.  I will cry again, it is human to feel hurt and pain but begging....... NEVER again. 

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deleted_user
deleted_user

good for you!! my stbx H came today to move the rest of his stuff out and all i could do before he got here was pray to God that i did not beg him...and i didn\'t. hugs to you!!! like you i will cry agian but pray i wont beg...
playerapr
playerapr

Good job memory!!!! I know how difficult it is - it took me a while to be where I am - I dont ever want to be a beggar again. Hugs to you!!!!!
deleted_user
deleted_user

That\'s wonderful to hear, you should be really proud of yourself. I have a feeling this is just the beginning of you finding your old self and getting your strength back. Good for you! :)
playerapr
playerapr

Thanks Peyton!! - I hope so :)