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How can one minute I'm at the top of the mountain and the next minute it seems like I'm falling?  Thinking about my stbx don't open the flood gates anymore but tonight I went out with my kids and I...

When I was in college my bf cheated on me and one of my friends told me I was inside a crystal box and I couldn't see the outside but that as soon as I got out of that box things would look...

Went out shopping with one of my friends, it felt good to be out with my friend, to have fun, to forget for a little while, to feel normal, to feel like no matter what I'll be ok, that I will have...

Last night I cried in the shower but it wasnt a hysterical crying, it was healing to just let the tears roll down my face.  I'm grieving the loss of what's never going to be again.  My H called...

Before my H I had dignity and pride.  If a man didnt want to talk or call me, be it, keep walking with my head help high, his loss. If he didnt want to be with me, why bother with someone that didnt...

Im seating at home waiting for my children and the loneliness and emptiness of the house is so overwhelming.  I miss my stbx so much.  I'm not begging or holdig out hope that things will change but...

Today is the day I see the divorce lawyer - is like a nightmare but at the same time I feel like I'm moving forward and not stuck hoping for things to get better.  Never in a millon years I would...

I was away from DS for a while cause reading about so much pain and hurt was making me sad.  My H has been deployed for 6 months now and even though things were looking up and heading in the right...

I carry my hurt and my pain with me everwhere I go - that is carry on baggage and I can't check it in but the days are getting better.  I don't cry everyday - I don't feel dying - I'm starting to...

I'm so emotionally exhausted.  Somedays I feel like I can't go anymore.  I feel like I'm the only one giving - but why?  He was the CS, he should be the one giving everything - but he is content...

So H currently deployed for a year, no contact with OW (or so he says and I decided to believe it, dont have proof of contact). I've done everything in my power for this marriage to work.  I feel...

About 6 months ago my husband of 10 yrs said he wasnt happy in our marriage, he didnt want to go to counseling.  He change for about 2 months and then he went back to saying he wasnt happy and he...

I'm not angry or sad, I feel okay, today - I dont know tomorrow - I feel at peace with myself, I feel somewhat happy but I miss him, I miss talking to him, I miss him in my life and I wish.  I wish...

When I was younger I believe in unconditional, undying, passionate, always and forever love, love will conquer it all type.  When I got married I thought it was forever, that our love will conquered...

My stbx and me talk often.  We don't talk about us, we talk about the kids, about work, things in general.  I'm still moving forward, taking care of me, I don't cry or beg him, I dont do anything...