Sunday
Yesterday was a miserable day - miss my stbx more than anything, cried in the shower, cleaned all day and went to the movies with the kids but even before we left I didnt feel like doing anything, I didnt want to leave the house, I didnt want to get dress, I was just feeling blah but glad I did, enjoyed the movie and been out of the house. Today was a much better day, went out with the kids, really warm, nice and beautiful day, get to hang out with some friends in the afternoon and the feeling of doom did not attack me today. My stbx haven't call me like in 3 days and I think that's why yesterday was also a blah day - even though I know it's over, those little bits that we get to talk still highlight my day, how pathetic I am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Eventually I will feel better and I hope to have more days like today and less and less like yesterday. Sending good thoughts your way my DS friends and praying for the recovery of our souls!!!!!!!!
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first off you ARE NOT pathetic. or if you are so am i. i have tried so hard not to talk to my stbx but i can\'t do it. i haven\'t talked to him today and i am about to go crazy. the weekends are the worst bc he is with his gf and can\'t talk to me the way he does when he is at work alone. my kids had a great time with them this weekend though so i guess that is a good thing. i had my step mom go and pick them up for me.
Sorry Saturday was rough on you, but at least you followed it up by a good day today. And you\'re right, as time passes, there will be more and more days like today. Hang in there. Sending you hugs and support!
Sometimes I wish I could be like them - how easy they seem to be moving on - how easy they walk away from they life they help us built - been able to turn off a switch and move on. Thanks!!!!!
One foot in front of the other.... every now and then I have one of those days when I have to force myself out of the house.,...but it really does help get your mind off of things. Glad you had a fun day with the kids and friends. I think you are doing great..be gentle with yourself!!
The more you take the first step, the easier it is to make your feelings work for you. You are doing great, and keep being gentle with yourself!
Little by little, it indeed does get better. There is a lot of pain to work through and it takes a really long time. However, many of us were where you are and are living testimonies that with time, positive changes come on so many levels.
That\'s not pathetic - especially if he is pleasant to talk to. I dread the texts and calls from my stbx because they are nothing but more harassment. Glad you had a good day though. Keep on chugging along, we\'ll all get there eventually! :)