featherwolf09

It's been a month since I wrote that last journal. I thought that maybe if I see how I am in the next month, I could see if I improved. Nothing has really improved and had probably gotten worse.I had...

I don't know what's wrong with me. This is starting to bug me alot. I feel like I'm slowly going even more insane. I keep trying to help myself and I get worse. I try to ignore it and I get worse. I...

I thought I was fine after that last journal. I thought I could talk to my boyfriend after that, I love talking to him. But, I guess I wasn't ok. I feel worse than when I wrote that last journal.I...

I don't understand the way I am sometimes. Somedays I'm fine and happy and other days I'm not. I understand what happens but I don't understand why it happens. It's been like this my whole life. I...

A bit depressed today. Woke up feeling like this. Right side of my face seems more sensitive for some reason. I don't know why, just does. Feels like my face was bitten by something with cold teeth....

I used to have hope to go to college. I've been in college for 2 years now, thinking that it would take me 2 years to get a 2 year degree. But, it's gonna take alot longer than that.I'm not so good...

I still don't understand what I should do. I really don't wanna take medicine cuz I'm already messed up with a bunch of other stuff and taking meds will most likely mess me up even more. After a...

I don't understand. I do everything I can and for some reason I can't seem to do anything about my depression. I've had this problem for a very long time and it got worse around 2003 when I was in...

Well I was doing a bit better with everything. But, now I feel like everything just reversed or maybe I wasn't improving at all and it was all an illusion of me improving. I really don't know. All I...

I'm somewhat back to this website. Alot has been goin on and I'm alot better than the last time I was here. Things have been looking up for me and my boyfriend. I've been more outgoing and been less...

I keep having nightmares about things that happened to me a long time ago. For the last week I've been having these nightmares again. I wish I wasn't. I'm not doing anything differently than I would...

I'm trying to make myself feel better by changing my reaction to certain things. Events that happened to me a while ago when I was little were horrible. They effected me too much and still do. I try...

I don't like the way my brain is. I can't control this at all. I can't control the way I think of myself no matter what I do. I just honestly think I don't deserve anything else but to die. I don't...

I feel alot better today. ^,^There are a few people that read my journals and support me with what I'm going through. That's fine I don't mind that. What I don't understand is why people complain...

Haven't been doin so good. I'm trying not to be depressed but it seems like it's imppossible. Been crying almost everyday and I'm tired of myself and everything.I feel like I'm never gonna be happy....