Not well again.
Well I was doing a bit better with everything. But, now I feel like everything just reversed or maybe I wasn't improving at all and it was all an illusion of me improving. I really don't know. All I know is that I don't feel great at all. Like my brain's emotional part is being controlled by someone else all the time. I can't just tell myself "be happy" and then become happy. I don't have the ability to do that about 90% of the time. And when I do it doesn't last very long. I've been trying to learn how to control my brain myself. But, I really haven't been goin anywhere much.
I really don't know what to do. I've been tryin to help myself for years and have done everything. I've even got help from other people and it seems like I'm gonna be like this for the rest of my life. I hate it so much and it makes my brain hurt so bad.
I really don't know what else to do when I've tried everything.
I really don't know what to do. I've been tryin to help myself for years and have done everything. I've even got help from other people and it seems like I'm gonna be like this for the rest of my life. I hate it so much and it makes my brain hurt so bad.
I really don't know what else to do when I've tried everything.
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If I may, can I suggest something? I\'ve tried to control my brain\'s emotional process so many times I\'ve lost count. Maybe letting go and not trying to control it may help. You not being in the best of moods or happy may be your brain giving you a hint that you just need to contemplate/reconsider things before being able to move forward. I in no way think I know everything but I hope this is helpful. On a happy note which may put you in a better mood i hope, I have a deviantart profile and your a very talented artist.
Thanks. I do contemplate alot of things. I go through a whole process of what happens to me and think about how and why it happened or anything I can do differently the next time and move on. I can move on with anything just fine. Me feeling depressed has nothing to do with any of my problems that I have with anyone.
It\'s just my brain randomly changes my emotions all the time and I can\'t really do much about it. I know it seems weird, but I try to stay neutral everyday so I can get by. Not happy, or sad, but just neutral cuz at least then I won\'t feel terribly depressed.
I can just be doing something I love doing, like drawing. Then all of a sudden I\'m severely depressed for no reason. No one bothers me, I\'m not mad at anyone, I\'m not stressed, and I\'m not doing something I don\'t like. I just draw or do other things I enjoy and then \"BAM!\" I randomly get depressed.