featherwolf09

I'm somewhat back to this website. Alot has been goin on and I'm alot better than the last time I was here. Things have been looking up for me and my boyfriend. I've been more outgoing and been less...

I keep having nightmares about things that happened to me a long time ago. For the last week I've been having these nightmares again. I wish I wasn't. I'm not doing anything differently than I would...

I'm trying to make myself feel better by changing my reaction to certain things. Events that happened to me a while ago when I was little were horrible. They effected me too much and still do. I try...

I don't like the way my brain is. I can't control this at all. I can't control the way I think of myself no matter what I do. I just honestly think I don't deserve anything else but to die. I don't...

I feel alot better today. ^,^There are a few people that read my journals and support me with what I'm going through. That's fine I don't mind that. What I don't understand is why people complain...

Haven't been doin so good. I'm trying not to be depressed but it seems like it's imppossible. Been crying almost everyday and I'm tired of myself and everything.I feel like I'm never gonna be happy....

Been trying to be happy. I was really happy with that last journal entry and after that day I haven't been able to get happy at all really. I feel horrible and terrible and I feel like the worst...

I've been feeling really happy for the past couple of days. Usually my depression is manageable, but in the winter months it's a lot worse. But, winter is almost over here. It never really snowed...

I feel like my memory is getting worse and worse everyday. At first I thought I was just imagining it. But, I  can't remember what I'm doing as I'm doing it and it's getting worse and worse.It feels...

Been trying to calm myself down. Nothings working anymore. Music only works half the time and I can't really move around much. I always feel all alone and like no one cares about me at all. I hate...

I've been trying to finish my 2nd semester. I've just been having trouble organizing myself. I'm usually pretty organized. Last semester was good because I was keeping everything organized. Nothing...

I want to get better but I'm just all over the place on where to start bettering myself. So, I think the main thing I should do first is to change how I view myself. That's where many of my problems...

Finally after having nightmares for 4 days in a row and only getting 5 hours of sleep. I didn't have a nightmare last night. It's horrible and only got worse and worse. I hope they don't come back.If...

I feel horrible right now. I have no idea why. I hate this so much. I hate myself so much. I might just train myself to be an unemotional person because being an emotional person just makes things...

I keep having nightmares about things that happened to me a while ago when I was a little kid. I was around one of my mom's ex's and  he abused me physically, mentally, emotionally, and sexually...