Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
I feel like clowning around today. I want to take on something different, which may be furniture. Idk. I want to get trashed and dance, really, but the fallout is not worth it.
Greetings from my twilight perch! The morning is my time, and the sweet silence as i tap away on my phone and the birds are so happy the spring is on it's cusp, is when i can reflect on a few things.
I would be lying if i claimed alcohol isn't in my brain, and knowing that i am an alcoholic is key to help defend against it. I am again a month and a half sober. I am so sneaky that I want to get blitzed for breakfast!
I legit have some Ocean's 11 plan to stealth out of my home, drive to Walgreens and drink drugstore wine before anyone is the wiser. Shut up!!! Stop making evil plans!! What is wrong with me?
Oh yeah, i am an alcoholic.
As an alcoholic, I will never be able to handle alcohol responsibly. I am fucked for life if i let booze in.
Once again i return to my mental list. I did a pretty awesome job on my son's hair yesterday. I was delighted to have a moment with his highness as he is so angry that he has parents,who kiss his holy ass, exist. Concierge parents we are. My kids get deluxe treatment with special sauces and organic produce. They own nicer shit than my husband and i. It's shocking they are not bigger assholes the rate we are corrupting them.
One day i will write a book on parenting. It would be a more cautionary tale kinda book, like this may not be the best tactic, but this is what we do, maybe it will sorta work for you, too.
Still, that rapido hair style, as he doesn't have time to sit still for mere minutes, was a rare moment I was allowed in his life. Though that may not seem so significant, it is a step to keeping that window open so he doesn't give up on me and box me out.
The truth is, we all need love. Babies die without affection. People need people. I realize my path of self destruction would have far reaching devastation. I love these people, and i need them to love me. I live for them. I am sober for them. I am not clowning when i say that.
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check out that smoke ring. It tasted really good. I smothered it with Maulls BBQ sauce which is Local to St. Louis and one of the best I ever had.....
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I was recently separated from my wife of 33 years and it's complicated. Anyway I rented a room about 15 minutes away and I see my kids about once a week. I see the people who own the house I live in once in a while but other than that I stay in my room where I do my cooking, wash dishes in the shower, read, color, and sleep. I get out at least once a day. I grocery shop and I attend 2 meetings...
Someone greater then us all has your back as long as you keep inviting Him into your life, every time you appreciate your home, and nature, (the birds of spring :) and your kids!
Keep up the good work and the day will come when you can be in the company of drunks and not have any desire to drink, at all.
God Bless
Your thoughts of alcohol will be replaced with the good stuff, it just needs you to have the time, patience, willpower & self-determination.
It has happened to all of us that remain sober, so we know 100 % if will happen to you, you just need that time under your belt.
Before you know it, your son will be asking you to be his regular hairdresser :), he will trust and have faith in you and will feel safe knowing that you are going to remain sober. Your family will have alot more trust and confidence in you when they can be sure you are not going to drink, it's just about you taking the action required, if you can do 1 1/2 months, you can do 6 months and so on.