The thing that kept me sober the most was when I stopped judging others and began to look for the Divine in everyone. It doesn't seem possible but when you look at the bigger picture, it makes you wonder why others are unable to grasp this simple concept. Meditation helped me to see it.

Meditation was like a gateway drug for me. It took me to places I never would have seen while stuck in my addictive, ego mode. I highly recommend.

God Bless

have never heard of strawberry and peanut butter beer ? sounds revolting - have you ever tried AA or any other recovery programs - it sounds like you are in a perpetual loop & need to step out of it - otherwise, it will destroy you. Like Bob says, meditation will help alot, you will be able to slow down, breathe and eventually find some peace. Worth a try !

The fact that you can see and express this state, proves that it is not you not your identity. I know the feeling that your identity has been hijacked. I have been thinking for some days, I am going to re-instated my identity. the bull-shit that others project on me is not me and I will fight to my last breath to be who I am. Reach out to help and support, but when you do don't let them define your idenity... it is yours and always was yours... the trap with 'help' is they want to redefine you not restore you... take care ... find your place of peace within you! and build on that bit by bit... huggg

When I've truly had enough of something is when it will change. Usually... I have to want that something different badly enough. I love the Buddhist concept of: there is no past or future, there is only now. When I first read this, newly sober, I really didn't know what it meant. I thought it was a way of saying; be in the moment, Very Zen. When the real meaning hit me , continues to hit me, I am in awe. I am the moment, not just in it. The only, actual living happens now. EVERYTHING OTHER THAN NOW IS THOUGHT. Did the past happen? of course it did, otherwise the historians would be very upset. But IS it happening? Only when we think about it. Then we summon it into the present. We don't do this, our minds do. You brought up the ego before, in the past lol. The ego, our mind gets a bad rap. I see the mind as a tool that helps us cook, drive, work etc, but it isn't 'us'. You and I are the awareness that can see the workings of the mind and can step back and observe. So, no, you aren't your addictions. You are the one who can write this post and feel the truth of what you said. Only one person can play the staring role of you better than anyone else. It's a custom made part. That's the ego and all the memories, beliefs that our environment has instilled But it's all just mind. When Shiney mentioned being in a loop, this is important. The habit is to go back over past behavior and cycle through. It's what the mind does. However, since all we truly are is NOW, (because everything else is thought) we constantly have the opportunity to reset the minds behaviors. IF that's what you WANT. Change doesn't happen as this lightning flash where we are struck and suddenly we are different people. Wouldn't that be easy. It's slow and, if we allow, steady. That slowness is a problem because we can get complacent and drift back over the yellow line in sleep. Or we face how far we've drifted and throw up our hands in despair because it SO BIG. Nope, take a breath and go for a walk. That's how we change. Not glamorous, just ordinary life. But with a little twist. Usually go right, try going left and ALLOW your mind to form a different habit. Be patient, Rome wasn't built in a day, right? The trap is expecting something better than what is here now. That's what keeps us living in future thinking that soon we'll be happier than now. Just different, maybe happier with healthier behaviors we teach our mind but not really different. I think I'm the same person I've always been, I just have a peace about what is more than I had. And, slowly, that changes everything.

Namaste to that Jase !

Hi Pink, How's it going? thought it was time to say hi and hope that you're ok

I was in the same place and all I did was play ostrich

I drank and put my head in the sand so I didn’t see anything around me.


The Cinderella syndrome is simply sitting on the pity pot. Life is what you make it not the other way around

I appreciate the post because I don’t care to drink peanut butter beer today

I wake up every day and tell myself

I am good , I am worth it ,

Self talk is powerful