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I woke up feeling better. Nothing's changed except perhaps my attitude. I hope I can hold on to this. I slept like crap as usual & dreamt about arguing with him.I have some realizations this morning...

Get better please - this is to me not him.Last night at 10 he texted me that he had gone to the ocean with someone else and that he thought of me.What a trigger - I responded with basically don't...

I haven't been on here in over a month. I've been so down. I miss him so much. I want to focus on myself, but I just miss him. He was so awful to me. I wanted to get away so bad. I don't understand...

I'm really doing good.  Keeping busy & reconnecting with family and friends. But i miss him. I don't want to miss him. I know this feeling will fade. I just want to call him or text & say I miss...

I have .moved into my apartment and yes! I have internet now. It has been a long week putting this place together & I am still not done, but I think I have found a new home. It is starting to feel...

I've been doing better, little by little. I'm sleeping a little better, still not good, but better. I'm working on the things I need to do. Still I feel like I'm pushing elephants uphill, everything...

I got the apartment. I get to move in on the 27th. I am so happy about this. I can't wait to have a place to myself, and to get all my stuff in one place. I haven't had this in over 4 years. Some of...

Right after posting in my journal last night I got 2 texts from him. "I'm alone and I'm feeling bad. Can you please come over just for a little bit." "I'm feeling like I'm dying and I'm scared."Yep....

I'm feeling bad, not slit-my-wrists kind of bad, but oh crap this is hopeless bad.I saw him again. I guess I may never learn. He has been self destructing in the past few weeks. I got a call from his...

I've changed my profile pic to this saying, "Never run back to what broke you." That is my job now.I've been feeling down because I haven't gotten a place, job, way of living figured out yet. It's...

I left him one month ago today. I have been NC for 3 days. I don't ever want him back. I am still so sad about him though. I know he is a lost cause, but I'm still missing him. He is an ass and a...

I am happy & I am sad. I saw him on 3 separate occasions this week. A good friend of ours died so we were both around the family and at the funeral. It was weird and uncomfortable being around each...

I'm really doing okay. I really am. I still have so many things to figure out, like where to live, how to make money- you know the hard stuff. But I am so much better just by not being with him.This...

I guess everyone who advises no contact has a reason for that. I guess someday I will learn my lesson.It started Friday with texts - Do you have my truck key? Yes, I did. He also said he had some of...

I've done good. I've gotten out & am making steps toward a future. I'm spending time with family & friends. I'm looking for an apartment and looking a jobs. But I am weary.I am Sad. Sad I am.I am so...