Doing okay
I'm really doing okay. I really am. I still have so many things to figure out, like where to live, how to make money- you know the hard stuff. But I am so much better just by not being with him.
This feeling I've had the past 2 days is freedom. The huge weight of his control over me is lifting. I can come & go as I like. I can sleep & eat as I like. :)
I have applied for an apartment that I really like. I'm hoping & praying I will be approved. I won't know for at least a week.
Tonight I sent out 3 resumes for jobs. I'm really wanting to work for myself doing custom sewing and alterations, but I can't even start this until I have my own place, so I am applying for jobs too. I just want to keep all my options open.
Wow that sounded good - all my options - I didn't have options before. I did what he thought I should do, or I paid the price. He made me so small. I'm ready to grow again.
I still think of him, worry about him & yes, damn it, miss him, but I'm getting more & more sure that I will never, ever go back.
And I'm glad.
This feeling I've had the past 2 days is freedom. The huge weight of his control over me is lifting. I can come & go as I like. I can sleep & eat as I like. :)
I have applied for an apartment that I really like. I'm hoping & praying I will be approved. I won't know for at least a week.
Tonight I sent out 3 resumes for jobs. I'm really wanting to work for myself doing custom sewing and alterations, but I can't even start this until I have my own place, so I am applying for jobs too. I just want to keep all my options open.
Wow that sounded good - all my options - I didn't have options before. I did what he thought I should do, or I paid the price. He made me so small. I'm ready to grow again.
I still think of him, worry about him & yes, damn it, miss him, but I'm getting more & more sure that I will never, ever go back.
And I'm glad.
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I\'m glad, too, to read this. Even just getting a little taste of what it feels like to be free is wonderful. As for missing him, just keep thinking of the bits you DON\'T miss...
You\'re doing great MS! It\'s inspiring! Keep on, keeping on. Isn\'t it nice to get YOUR life back? Freedom, options, serenity. Love it! You take care of you and God will take care of the rest. I\'ve seen it happen many time.
I love this. It warms my heart this morning. Do you have temp agencies in your area? I got my job through a temp agency and the pay was twice what I expected and the job led to a permanent offer. A lot of companies are hiring this way.
you are doing amazing, keep it up! As far as missing him, that is normal and shows that you are truly a kind and compassionate woman. I still miss my ex after a year so I wish I could tell you that you won\'t, but you will. The trick is to stop those thoughts as soon as they come into your head.......something I don\'t do sometimes and it just sets me back in my healing. We both must remember the bad things they did to us, ok? We didn\'t deserve any of it. You have done amazing things in just a short amount of time. Freedom is the best ever and you so deserve this!!!!!! Hugs
How lovely, good for you.
I will keep you in my prayers and hope you get the apartment! Hugs GB