tired

my sister seems think im too sensitive so should i be like her and date people that drink like a fish and beat me. why cant i just role with things and not get stressed at the drop of a dime. glad im so tired tonite and not freaking out cause girl not coming over on her night off. she did spend last night. she need clean house cause company coming. we had good night last night first time in months she actually let me touch her. ugh. why cant i not get attached and not love her. lost it on her little bit earlier cause her friends broke up 6 yr relationship she thought funny and  this why she dont make plans. i said just cause someone hurt you so bad before doesnt mean u need shut down and ruin rest life and not let anyone care for you. she said they split cause were not 100 percent compatible which is one reasons she gave me for leaving me couple weeks ago so ya i was little bit of wreck for the day. she didnt talk to me for 6 hours now not coming over but very appologetic. ugh. last night was so much fun though i love laughing. why cant i just be happy with way things are. im workaholic got the kids why do i need more than couple days a week. i know she cares for me in her own way. she said i need to be more concerned with making myself happy and not her. i said when in relationship should be priority and it makes me happy when she happy. oh well