ItsJustMe239
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- It will be 9 years this November, yet I still cry, no sob. My heart is still broken, and I don't feel like I will ever reach the time when my heart smiles at the memories we made rather than breaks at the thought that he's gone. Everything...
- ....and venting. Please tell me if it's just me or is it normal that a day can be fine and then in the blink of an eye not so? For example, had a nice evening and then all of the sudden I'm the enemy--I put the cap on the medicine bottle, I...
- I wish so many things....that things didn't always have to be so hard....that the parent I grew up with, the one that was understanding, brilliant, kind, fair, optimistic would come to the surface more often....that I wasn't so alone....that I could...
- It will be five years next month that my husband...died...there, I said it....and in some ways it seems like 500 years and yet it seems like 5 seconds. I can't say time has healed my wounds....just allowed me to figure out how to exist in a world...
- Not gonna try and be politically correct....not gonna try and say the right thing....not gonna say what I think others want to hear....just gonna say it right out plain for once!!!! I'm tired of pretending that everything is ok. Tired of being...
- Sometimes I feel like I'm such a complainer. I've felt nothing but pain since November 18, 2009....even joyful things are tainted by this overwhelming sadness, lonliness. Sometimes I wonder if I'm only worthy of little snippets of...
- All I wonder is when or if I will ever feel even close to content. I don't feel like I have anyone I can talk to, though I am reminded by a well-meaning daughter how lucky I am that I have her, my dad, my nieces, my brother, etc. Yes, I am lucky...
- Today wasn't any better than any other day....last nght I cried from the moment I got home to the moment I fell asleep,....in the wee hours of the morning....nothing unusual about that. I had a day at work listening to another person in the office...
- My husband of 25 years died almost 3 years ago. I say the right things, volunteer so I can help others, try to help others to believe I will be ok, but you know what? It's tiring to pretend 24/7. I go to sleep thinking of my husband, I wake up...
- We were a family of three who is now a family of two. My daughter and I have always been very close, and I must admit that when she reached the age of adulthood it was very difficult for me not to "mother" her. Since my husband's death, she has...
- In 10 days it will be one year. Why am I angry that the rest of the world kept spinning when I knew it would. Why am I still envious of every couple I see, old or young. Why do I still reach out for him when I know he's not there. Why do I still...
- Yesterday would have been our 26th wedding anniversary. I am so lonely, so heartbroken that I wouldn't even get out of bed if it weren't for worrying my dad and/or my daughter and not wanting to tarnish my late husband's name. On the other hand, I...
- As I am sure all of you have heard, time is supposed to work wonders for us, help us to feel better or at least adequate. It would seem that after almost five months enough time would have passed for me so to help me not to sob uncontrollably...
- During the day, I get up, go to work, go to Zumba, committee meetings, bereavement support group, volunteer events, whatever. During all these I function like I would normally. When asked how I am doing I say "fine" and can pull it off most of...
- My husband of 25 years passed away unexpectedly mid November 2009. Since that day there hasn't been a day that I haven't cried...with grief, with anger, with a sense of loss, with frustration. I am not sure if I'm just not letting it sink in and...