yeouxleigh

NIGHTMARES: Warnings or Confirmations?Last night my dream was about me being in Nebraska with a friend of mine, when Robert called me on my cell. That was crazy because he does not have my new...

Shaking of traumatic bonding and ptsd, i know i will need more than just meds. I will need counseling. I am scheduled for assessment next week and hopefully, get started soon.

This is going to be a good day, i slept so well last night. I am so happy and this will be a start to the next 10 days.

Wow, the sun is finally out today after about a week. I am taking my do out to the lake for a long walk and just take in the nautral beauty of the water and waves. I think i am a little over due on...

TRAUMATIC BOND BRAKING: What made the bond so strong? (1) nice/mean affect (2) i was abused as child (3) returning surely is a death trap.SOME OF THE REASONS I FINALLY FOUND MY WAY OUT OF THE WATERY...

LETTERS FROM THE DEAD.....Dear SelfYou have been abused and taken advantage of almost all your life, since you were a child through adulthood. Your pain has been heard and felt all over the universe,...

DEAR DAD...MY BIOLOGICAL FATHERWhy? Didn't you know that your actions would affect the rest of my life? The answer is yes. I remember you telling me you were training me for my future husband. Your...

DEAR GARY....MY FIRST LOVEWhen Liz told me that you were molesting her, I had absolutely no doubt that she was telling the truth. It made my world turn upside down and i was hanging on to dear life...

LETTER TO ROBERT, THE LOVE OF MY LIFE.Dear Robert, There are so many things that I want to say to you, first I want to say that I love you. You were the love of my life, you were the first "man" i...

TRAUMATIC Bonding is my next course of study. Its when an abuser batters and loves intermittently. Also PTSD, i had forgotten about they symptoms. I just want to be clear headed.

PTSD - i will start a research project on this. I have been treated for this disorder but i went off my meds.

I miss him, i miss him, i miss him. I don't want to but i do. I have resisted calling him, but i keep waking up thinking of him and dreaming of him. How long will it take for me to completely get him...

This day promises to be good for me although I am not getting the kind of rest i need. It may be time to go see my DR again. My arms and wrist are starting to hurt, i think i am doing to much again....

My son's file will be on the governors desk on Thursay, please help me pray.

I am so sleepy, i have been resting ok so i don't know why i can hardly keep my eyes opened.