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robert has been good to me this week, he has given me some nice gifts, money and time. he brought me a silver bracelet that says HOPE on it last night. i love it. we are supposed to go watch a movie...

I do feel better today, my work and my day have both been successful. I am spending the evening with my son having some Killians Red. My next challenge is to keep and finish reading the book i...

Reflecting on my situation has opened my eyes to why i may be feeling the way I do. I have made so many changes in my life that i am in affect "hooked" on change.  I work better and I am more...

I think i am beginning to realize that i feel this way about more than just Robert. I feel this way about work and people i know. Its like i want something and then when i get it i don't want it...

JUST WANNA BE ME AGAIN. JUST ME.

reading back on my journal, i see its the same cycle again. and i am the one that went back to him only this time he is in my home. he lost his place, job everything and i took him back. i see now...

the day i saw him after 4 months of being apart he look terrible and i felt he need my help. i felt so sorry for him and i believed that he loved me and wanted to be with me. he has stopped drinking...

ok, im in confusion again,,,,with robert,,,again. last night i tried talking to him. but he is pretty much shut down. i guess i am too. i don't know if maybe i just want to get out of this...

i went to church and i feel great. i am on a spiritual journey.

i feel better and have a great outlook on this week. my job is great and i have a direction for a change. hope all is well with all.

this week as been so crazy. i want my regular mundain life back. i have really missed writing but i have been so busy. i look forward to the weekend when i can just go home and relax.

well, its monday and i feel kinda weird about being alone. why do i get so attached to people? co-dependant....right. i spending time with my son this evening. going to dinner and stuff. im having...

this morning robert got on a plane to visit his son in florida. i have mixed feelings about him being gone. trust issues. hope i get thru ok. i am kinda glad that he is away for a week. it gives me a...

wow, just dropped off my 21 year old son at his uncles house so he could see his grandmother and father. its strange, i feel sick to my stomach at the thought that he is even in the same state that i...

i just found out that my childrens bio-father is coming into town. He is registered sex offender. I feel uneasy about it. although my kids are grown they still feel bad about him even being in town.